Bad trip man!

Ilang araw ng walang internet dito sa office. Pakshet! Di ka makapagtrabaho ng maayos at di ko ma-update tong blog ko! Yun yun e.

Aside from our internet that's acting weird for the past days we celebrated our 4th monthsary yesterday that sucked because of my selfishness. I was not in the mood yesterday. Morning pa lang nabad trip na kagad ako. Ewan ko ba kung bakit. Maybe because of my period. Or I was that bitchy. You can't imagine a couple working under one roof and fighting silently. Lufet noh?! You're all not aware that we're fighting or only few can notice. It works as simple as this. We will just discharge our feelings on messenger. Sabihin mo na lahat ng gusto mong sabihin through YM. Sorry ka na lang kung masama dating sa isa. Ganun! May isang lalapit pag di na carry. And most likely si lalake yun. Matigas kasi si babae e. Hehe. He will just pull me from my chair and drag me outside. We will find a place where we could talk. In that case, makakapag-usap ng maayos then okay na ulit. Mahal na ulit namin ang isa't-isa. Wahehe. Parang mga luko noh?

Anyway, last night, thank God we separated in good condition. I went home alone and he stayed here in the office to wait for his colleagues. They played basketball. I was supposed to go with them but I felt lazy. I can't pull a leg. I bought food and watched TV at home, alone. I watched RUMOR HAS IT by Jennifer Aniston, Mark Ruffalo and Kevin Costner. Potek and gwapo ni Kevin. Kahit matanda na, delicious pa rin. At empre, ang pinagpapantasyahan kong si Mark Ruffalo. Ang cute cute nya kasi at parang napaka-gentleman pa. At isa pang pinagpapantasyahan ko sa mga kababaihan sa hollywood. Jennifer Aniston. Her supahot body and innocent-like face. Rawr!

I missed him while watching it so I texted him sweet messages. Naginarte ako sa text. "Sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you and ruined our special day. Hope you don't give up on me. Just always bear this in mind, I love you, I care for you and I will never leave you." Ampotah! Ganun kasi ako pag nakakanood ng mga love stories. Nadadala ako masyado kaya nagbabagong anyo ako. Haha!

Syasya. Gabi na! Uwian na.

wag nga kayong shet!

If you can't like me, so am I to you. I can't force you to love neither like me and if you don't feel like talking to me. Would you care enough to get out of my sight and throw your fucking ass to where it belong? Or you want me to do a favor and kick it to wherever it supposed to be placed. Wag nga kayong shet! You don't need to pretend. You don't even need to be nice to me. Don't push yourself honey. Be yourself!

If I wronged you...and apologized to you...don't play God and act like I ruined your life. Wake up man! We're not perfect. Even you. You did errors, mistakes and brought problems to your neighbors and in good faith have been forgiven. So please learn how to forgive, be true and move on. Live our lives peacefully and restore everything we lost.

Jezaz!

what now?

I really enjoy every minute of work here in my new working area. Specially this kind of day, Saturday! I have no more fear if there's someone sneaking behind me and viewing my monitor. Specially the big boss. In my previous location, I was facing backward the door. Everytime the big boss enter the room looking for me while yelling my name. I don't even bother to turn around and face him because I'm wearing my headphones with music playing in maximum volume. Either my seatmate will poke me or message me saying "the boss is calling you". Now, I'm facing on the passage and they can no longer see what I'm doing. Brilliant! Hehe.

Last Thursday (January 18th), Alben and I went to SM Megamall to meet his family for a dinner. The time was set at 6:30 PM and the venue was in Dad's restaurant inside SM Megamall.

We need to rush our work to get there on time. He gave me the time of our leaving. By 6PM we should be hunting a cab outside the building. But of all the time, unexpected problem came. The FTP was acting weird. I cannot connect to any sites. Damned FTP! I uninstalled it and installed again. When I was doing that, I was surprised when Alben showed up ready to go. He's face looked worried. Shit! I hastily input all the FTP sites needed and faced him. We hurriedly went down the building and looked for a cab. Luckily we found one quickly. I thought we're already safe but the heavy traffic added pain in our heads. After 40 minutes we finally arrived at the mall.

We almost run to get to the venue. When we were spotting them from the outside of the restaurant, I heard his Mommy's voice calling near our back with his Daddy and Ate. There they are. I thought we were the most late. While resting our feet on the free seats Mommy eyed, Kuya came along with his girlfriend Abby. Then after several minutes, his Aunts and Uncles came. He introduce me to his Aunts and Uncles. Auntie Nene (who came from Spain) gave me a soft peck on my right cheek. Heee. I felt awkward. Di ako sanay ha! His Dad broached me their youngest and told me their number. I was surprised when I knew that he was the oldest. I joked him, "Di po halata ha!". Hoooo. Feeling close ba? Hehe.

Then we entered the restaurant. My eyes grew wide when I saw the volume of food spread on tables. When we were settled on joint tables, we directed immediately to the buffet. Yee haw! Eat all you can to! I only picked foods that I think will fit in my stomach. But I was wrong. I didn't finish everything on my plate. Ate kid me, "Ubusin mo yan. Lagot ka. Babayaran mo yan ng doble." Waaah! I can no longer take it. I put everything on Alben's plate and petrified him. "Ubusin mo yan ha. Malalagot ka." Bwahaha! After he finished all the main dish. We went back for dessert. We scooped ice creams and sliced cakes. Hehe.

When our stomach were all full. My fucking head ached. From my back neck upto my top head. Huhuhu. I felt dizzy and felt I was about to throw everything I put in my stomach. Alben looked for a drugstore and bought medicine and bottled water. He accompanied me 'til I caught a jeep to our house. He was supposed to bring me home but I dissuaded him. He has work to do and need to get back to the office.

At home, I just rest my head and slept early.

Yesterday, I saw my dentist because I'm feeling pain at my lower left teeth. I thought it was one of my molars with pasta that is aching but my dentist told me that the cause of pain is coming from my lower left tooth with its root slightly exposed. What was the cause? Excessive and hard brushing. The gums drooped down exposing the roots of my teeth. She let me saw my lower front gums that look like curtains due to hard up and down brushing. Ho-hum. Ang sagwa tingnan.

Doktora advised me to use Sensodyne and Pyodontyl for my gums.

That's for today. Babush!

I moved!

Yes, I finally moved to more convenient, peaceful and bigger working area and as of now I'm enjoying working here. Free from noise and I have privacy but they're passing me by. And every passers notices me. With this charming face. Wadahek!

I checked my friendster and this is what my Horoscope says:

"Stop fighting against things you can't fix. Accept things as they are and smile."

I just took a big sigh. I should learn how to accept things the way they are. Never complain, question and most of all EXPECT. I will just hurt myself if I will not stop fighting against things that I know, myself, can never be fix.

Hoooooooo. Enough for the drama.

Time to pack and get out of here. I lovah my new working area. Heehee.

He's my man!

They said he's man of no promises.
He's no good to me.
He will just hurt me.
He once break my heart and can do it again.
He never stand by my side and left me hanging.
He doesn't know how to touch a girl's heart.
He's just playing game and he'll never love me.

But what they don't know is how he makes me feel.
No matter what they say against him, I ain't go nowhere.
I will stay by his side.
By his loving arms.
No matter what they think about him,
I will always be there for him 'coz he's my man and I find love in him.
The love that we share lives inside of me.
The love that I never felt before.

No matter what I hear is all in the past.
Everything that matters is what we're feelin'.
And this feeling will never last.
The heart of his soul breeds inside of me.

'Coz my man, makes me feel so special.
He makes me feel so precious.
He makes me feel wonderful.
He makes me feel beautiful.
With him, I feel so comfortable.
He's nobody but he's my man.

I LOVE MY MAN.

restful weekend...

I shouldn't say restful because I went to 168 Mall alone last Saturday. Ben forbid me to go out because we planned to take a rest the whole weekend. And because I'm a stubborn. I went out by myself. Paul and I should go together but he felt lazy and refused to come. On the other side, it's for his own good. He lacked sleep and need a good rest. I should really not go that day and I set my mind to go home early and buy DVD movies and popcorn but an evil idea came up to my mind and changed my direction. I took an FX going Divisoria.

The place was not so crowded compared last Christmas. People don't have anymore money for shopping! What's left with them are their gigantic debts!!! Thank God I don't have one. Well, I just bought blouses, skirt, leggings, accessories, belts and shoes. Hehe. Wala na ako masuot e. Bat bah?

After dragging tons of kikay stuff, I decided to went home. I bought 3 DVD movies. Borat, Another Gay Movie and a collection of 8 Tagalog Movies. That was the first time I bought Tagalog movies. I never bought Tagalog movies because (1) the copies are taken from movie theaters (blurred, dimmed and unaudible) (2)most of the stories suck (3)the production is cost-cut (4) and most of the stories are copied from foreign movies. Pffft. We watched Borat and that movie is hilariously crazy. There is no man in this planet that will act that weird. He's insane aside from the fact that he's a media man from his country Kazakhstan. He's an educated man from his country but he acts like a moron in US. Anyhow, he made me laugh.

Sunday? Hmn. I woke up 9 AM. Ate my breakfast. Watched Manay Po, the first movie we watched from the 8 Tagalog movies in 1 CD I bought. Sleep. Woke at at 4PM. Took a bath and went to church.

Before going back home, me and my Sis bought lechon manok for our dinner. Guess what? We're only three but we finished the whole chicken. Haha! Di naman kami gutom e noh? Hehe. After that we watched Inang Yaya and sleep. Hehe.

camera trip...

Walang magawa kagabi kaya pinagtripan namin sarili namin. Pag labas pa lang ng pinto ng office, labas na kagad ng camera at pose kagad si Bentot. Haha! The shirt he was wearing yesterday is his best shirt. And because I gave it to him. Haha! Kaya sinamantala nya ang pagkakataon at nagpakuha ng nagpakuha ang mokong. Walang flash yung camera ng Mp4 ko so pics would be blurred and dimmed. We need a better lighting so we started picturing inside the elevator. Naka-3 shots din kami bago bumukas yung pinto ng elevator sa ground at ang mokong gusto pang umakyat ulit para magpapicture pa ng marami. Hiluhin ba ako!

We directed to Goldilocks at bumili na naman ako ng walang kamatayang mamon! Ito lang madalas ang dinner ko. I'm not in a diet kaso madalas busog pa ako kaya lite food lang dapat ang kakainin ko sa gabi saka para maliit yung tyan. Hehe.

Dinaanan muna namin yung damit ko sa laundry saka dumiretso sa boarding house ko. At ayun, pinagtripan namin yung camera. Here are some of our photos.

reminiscing the past...

It came across my mind yesterday all the things that had happened to me for the past year. I'm starting to kiss the new year without even bothered to reminisce the adventures I had over the past year.

2006 for me was the year of learning. I've been through so many things. I've been through highs and lows. A dear friend of mine left the country leaving a deep loneliness in my heart but I find ways to forget her. Wished her good luck for her journey and prayed for her safety. I've been into fights, quarrels, arguments with my fellow workers and friends. Thank God, until now we're still friends. Even hard, we settled and fixed everything. In every trials, there are learnings. After those fights, I will think of it and tattooed in my mind every single thing that I need to avoid next time. I admit, I'm a bully, sarcastic, babbler and all the negative you can say to a Scorpio. But. I can lessen or even stop it. I know my limits. Anyhow, there are good things that came to me that year. Lovelife! From zero it grew to thousandths! Hekhek. But let's leave that first. It deserves a separate entry. Hehe.

Last year, I've been generous and accomplice. It feels so good in heart when you reached for help to others. I helped my brother find a job though 'til now he's unemployed. He's a stubborn, you cannot blame me. I bought my Mom a sofa that she's dying to get. Pft. I've been good to my Sister. At the quarter part of that year, I kept out on rumors and gossips spreading inside the office to avoid enemies. I changed for good and hope to become better this year.

I finally found myself...

I don't know how to start this entry. I just can't explain how I feel. I guess, I finally found myself in the loving arms of someone. The peacefulness and happiness I was praying before has finally blessed upon me by the good Lord.

For those who didn't know me before. I was sarcastic and frank. Words just spill out my mouth and I cannot control it. I don't care who you are. I don't mind if I can hurt your feelings but I know how to apologize. I'm not that bad as what you're thinking. I have a babble-mouth and a babbler until now but I've learned from my mistakes and never dissed someone. I can't keep secrets. I will relay it to someone whom I can trust but I was wrong 'coz he/she can't keep secrets too. I was arrogant. I believed in myself and didn't let others explain their side. I was selfish and I would do everything to get what I want. I've been to big fights. At work and at home. I drink and smoke if I feel the whole world is against me. I cried a lot. Tears of desperation and loneliness. I have no path to walk through. I'll just go with the flow and never think of the future. The saying "Live your life to the fullest" stuck in my mind and I took it vaguely.

That was me before.

Until one day, someone came into my life and change my world. He put colors to my life. He fetched me from the savage and show me the real meaning of life. No one can rate how I feel right now. I've learned how to give importance to someone. I've learned how to take care someone. I've avoided rumors and gossips that occupy my mind. I've learned how to act like a woman. (Though I look like a girl. Heh) . I've never been a pessimist but became a straight optimist. I can like you even you're snobbish and unapproachable and to exaggerate it, even you're annoying. (Haha!) My faith to God became stronger. To make things short, I became a better person. All because of LOVE. Yihee!

I just want to leave this message to all SINGLE out there. Don't lose hope. Life is full of surprises. You may never know...the one standing beside you right now...is the one you've been waiting all your life. So just SMILE. Coz it's the second best thing that you could do to your lips. What's the first? You will know it when you find that ONE!

so sick...

It happened that I woke up yesterday with a sore throat and a hoarse voice and didn't able to come to the office. I was lying on my bed all day yesterday. The boyfriend slept over to nurse me and I can award him as the best nurse ever. He fed me and massaged my whole body. I wonder why, so the blood will continuously run through my veins? eh? Isn't it?

Anyway, I managed to got up from bed today though my body is still in pain. I took a bath though I was chilling from the cold water. I don't mind. I'm so annoy with my smell. Perspiration dried under my head. Ew.

And now, I'm still suffering from this virus I got. Can't get rid of it. I should stay at home and rest. Again.

Happy Holidays!!!

Those were really happy holidays.

I spent Christmas with my love ones and most specially to my special love one. Yihee! That was my first Christmas with a boyfriend. And I can't thank God enough for giving me that special gift. I never dreamed of Christmas with someone cuddling me. I knew Christmas as wrapping gifts for my family and friends, writing greeting cards for family and friends and sneaking in crowded department stores with my family and friends. I never think of it as special as what I had this Christmas. Shopping with the boyfriend. Attending gatherings with the boyfriend. Noche Buena with the boyfriend. Wuhooo!

And here are my holiday ramblings.

If I'm not mistaken, it was December 10, 2006 when me and my boyfriend went to Divisoria to hunt an MP4 player which was his Christmas present for me. We had a hard time struggling to the people crowding the whole place. Tsk. I can't even move my feet. The current will surely push you to wherever you will go. However, we succesfully bought an MP4 player with built-in camera and expandable memory storage with a DVD player as his bonus gift for me. Hehe. I love this man.

December 18, 2006. We went to Glorietta. We shopped and dine at the food court where we bumped his choir friends. Everytime we go out lagi na lang kaming may nakikitang friends or colleagues. What a small world.

Last December 21, 2006, we held our Christmas party at Parasol. The party went well though it was not properly organized. The people don't have much time for the preparation, guess they were too busy. Our musicians, our pride, performed that evening. Jason, supervisor in MIDI RT, wildly strummed his guitar while singing the song "Awit ng Kabataan" as popularized by River Maya. Paul was the bass guitar and the second vocal while Neil took the drumset. There were thrilling games that boost to everyone. After the party me with the tech guys went back to work. Actually, sila lang. Sinamahan ko lang si Ben that night. Hehe. We went home around 2AM. Our boss drove us home. They were surprised when Ben went down and came with me in our house. Then the rumor start spreading. Heck. It's okay. We're pretty obvious.

And on the eve of Christmas the boyfriend made me cry. Huhu. It was late morning of December 24, 2006 when he phoned me detailing his burden on work and I symphatized on him. Then the chatting went on until we came to the topic where and with whom he will spend Christmas. I knew Tita was in their house with them so I was convinced that he will spend it with his family but as we go with our conversation I knew that Tita was in their province, his Kuya with his GF, his nurse cousin on duty and Manang Pia went home to her family. So he was alone at home. He told me that he will play on church from 6 'til 11 PM. Huwat?! He will spend the Christmas in church? Pero ang nasa isip ko, he will go with his friends and spend the whole night with them. Huhuhu. I felt a knot in my throath that I can no longer utter words. So, I wished him a merry Christmas and dropped the phone. Priority nya friends nya, magsama sila ng kaibigan nya! I went to bed and cried then fell asleep. I woke late noon with agonizing stomach. I haven't take my lunch yet. Argh. I checked my phone but got no message from him. Hmp. I don't care! Sinong tinakot nya?! (I was that angry that day.) After eating, I coaxed my sister to went on town and buy some stuff that we will need that evening. I coaxed them to sing so I can forget the pain in my heart. At 6PM I received a message from him asking where am I. And I replied him "Bakit?". He told me that his on his way to Polo (our town) and he wanted me to meet there. Thought he will play and tag along with his friends. I was so angry so he ask for forgiveness and when he came to our house he explained that he just wanted to surprise me. He will really spend Christmas with me. I cried and hug him. Yihee! That was the best Christmas I've ever had.

On Christmas day we woke up early and attend the 9 o' clock mass. I was with him and my sister. The church was crowded. What do I expect? People are giving thanks to God for sending his Son. At home my relatives came one-by-one. Our small house has been filled with little fellas running and grown-ups joyously chatting to one another. My uncle and aunts welcome Ben to the family.

And how about New Year? It was the dullest new year I had. Me, my sister and Mom celebrate it at home. Only three of us. December 31, 2006 afternoon, we went to my brother's house. Nakipagkulitan lang dun then went back home on evening. That's it. My sister and I only watched movies 'til 12 midnight.

And now...everything back to normal. Work. work. work.

And oh, I forgot, my new year's resolutions? Quit smoking and drinking. Goodluck to me, but I can do it. I can beat my stubborness. Haha

barkada

Matagal-tagal din kaming di nagkikita. Barkadang walang katumbas na halaga. Kaibigang kasama mo sa hirap at ginhawa. Mga taong handang lumaban para sayo. Mga taong kasabay kong tumawa, umiyak, mangarap, magalit at magmahal simula noong ako'y inosente pa lamang. Inosente sa mga bagay-bagay sa aking kapaligiran. Inosente sa mundong aking ginagalawan.

Haay... parang kailan lang. Lagi kaming magkakasama at sabay-sabay mangarap sa tabing-dagat. Natatandaan ko pa, sa kanila ako natuto ng bisyong aking kinagiliwan. Bisyong hanggang ngayon ay bumabalot sa aking katauhan. Bisyong pilit kong iniiwasan. Bisyong dulot ng pag-aaway. Hanggang ngayon sariwa pa rin sa aking alaala. Magdadala kami ng ilang piraso sa tabing-dagat kasama ang ilang lata ng alak na magdadala sa amin sa alapaap at tuluyang liliparin ang aming mga isipin ng aming mga pangarap. Aabutan ako ng isang piraso at sisindihan, sabay hitit, hanggang makarating sa aking baga. Nakakatuwa lang isipin ang mga kalokohan na aming sinubok.

Pagkatapos ng ilang sesyon, magtatayuan at maghahabulan sa lawak ng parke. Parang mga musmos na nagsisigawan, nagtatawanan at naghahabulan hanggang sa mapagod at maupo sa ilalim ng puno. Sabay tipa ng gitara at kantahan. Haay...ang sarap sariwain ng mga alaala. Alaalang gusto kong balikan. Alaalang aking muling pinananabikan.

Ngayon, abala ang bawat isa sa kanya-kanyang buhay. May mga trabahong pinagkakaabalahan. Karerang pinagyayaman. Pangalang iniingatan. Bihira magkita-kita at bihira magkausap. Suntok sa buwan kung magkasama-sama. Bagaman...sa puso ng bawat isa...nananatili ang mga alaala. Bagaman abala...nararamdaman ang pagka-ulila sa mga kaibigang minsang nakasama.


Ito ang aking iniingatan. Mga alaalang kahit lumipas ang ilang dekada ay di mababaon sa limot. Mga barkadang tunay.

tsk tsk...

While surfing the net, I came accross with this mercy news. The typhoon "Milenyo", that recently struck our country and left chaos is increasing the death toll nearly to 200.

MANILA -- The death toll from Typhoon Milenyo (international codename Xangsane) in the Philippines has risen to 197, with at least 22 other people still reported missing, rescue workers said.

As reported by other government agencies, 154 people were killed in five different provinces. At least 20 people drowned overnight the hills were included in the figure. I saw these people on TV atop the hill fish-eyeing the impetuosity of the storm. Without knowing that their curiosity will lead them to death. And 5 other people were still reported missing. Humnmn.


The President gazing at the damages made by "Milenyo". What must she thinking? Hmn.

The eerie storm wrecked thousandths of houses and tens of thousands of hectares of farmlands. Evacuees who lost houses still remained in evacuation centers near their place. God help us.

For sure, Meralco, which supplies power to about 70 percent of Luzon, will put millionths to its infrastructure. Bwahaha. And in the end they will sue innocent people. Putting additional charges on electric bill that they couldn't explain the use. Pfft.

la lala lala...

Hello folks!

Been busy with my LJ. I just dropped by to revive this blog. It's like an old notebook that never been opened for years and now producing spider web. Eww. Not bad. It will work on halloween. Harhar.

Yeahz. I'm becoming an addict. Crazy. Unstoppable. Fiend to blogging. Pfft. I dunno who gave me wisdom to blog. Whoever you are, thank you. You taught me how to express my inner thinkings.

Weekend?

Not that special unlike last week. An ordinary weekend where I spent most of my time watching movies. I doused my eyes on screen the whole afternoon. I pig out. Eat, sleep, watch, etc. My belly is getting bigger. Huhu.

Anyway, he will still love me even I became fat. He swore to me. Haha. And me to him. Ahihihi.

That's all.

memorable experience...

I never experienced such horrific event like what we had yesterday.

I was in a deep sleep when my phone rang that made me instantly rose up from bed. While yawning and quite irritated of the unexpected call I yanked my mobile and checked the caller. I was surprised on the person calling. I hurriedly accept it. Shocked on the news I got, I just assent his instructions and forwarded it to my colleagues. I don't have any idea of what's happening outside my room. A quick look outside confirmed that, indeed, there was a fierce storm a-brewing in our area.

Though chilling, I took a bath and almost freeze to death on cold water. Wee. Poor fella, doesn't have a heater to keep my body warm.

While preparing and packing my things, the light keeps on flickering. The electricity might went down. I better dispappear here so I held my bag and sped off.

Heading toward the office. The wind got stronger and turned my umbrella upside down. Grr.

This wind is pissing me off.

While crossing the street, it almost dragged me.

Hmn. This is not cool.

Finally, I reached our building still alive though gasping to breathe. I bumped to my cronies at the lobby. Oh man. They informed me that everything were suspended. Boo.

We still went up and check it. I really don't want to use the elevator for the fear that it might failed and stuck us. But I prefer to use it rather than the stairs. Hehe.

Inside the office we can hear the wind hurling beside the glass windows of the building. The sound was very audible and eerie. Most of the tech guys reported but we plan to leave early before the typhoon caught us. We first settle everything and got off. Our boss, in good heart, offered to drive us to our respective places.

We gathered and went down. As we approached the back of the building. Sweet Jesus! The wild wind approaching south is like a katabatic wind that can lift and drop you anywhere. Thin roofs, papers, tree branches, and litters were swooping. All my life, I've never seen a wind blows wildly like that. I called my mom and check if they are okay. Thank God she was safe home.

Through the blurry scene we saw our boss waving to us inside his car. We don't know how to get there as the wind will definitely haul us. We have no choice but to run fast and fight the strong wind.

On first attempt, I managed to open the side door of the car but it was facing against the wind. The door slammed hard. I was gripping on the handle when the wind lifted me up. Ben grabbed and dragged me inside the building. That was close.

We need to get to the car.

After a deep breath we ran again and in full force opened the side door and finally got inside. We can feel the car lurching. Some of our colleagues failed to cross the killing wind. We're lucky enough seated reluctantly, though soaked, but safe inside. As we drove around the building, trying to fetch the others stuck inside the building, we saw bended trees scattered on the street, signage torn apart, bended electric poles, motorcycle knocked down on street and power wires suspended on tree branches. A horrific scenery.

We headed in front of the Pacific Star Building and fetch the others.

At last, we drove back home.

random thoughts...

I missed entries for 4 days. I've been into a big fight. Hehe. Orders are in line to the door so I need to be rigid, fast and sharp. Anyhow, it was a good news and it will benefit all of us.

Another personal issue, I hate myself for being so stubborn. Why am I letting my own evil desires control me? He almost curse me to avoid this fucking pfft! I want to stop it but I can't. What will I do? Huhu. How can I get rid of this thing? I'm stuck to it. I know I can beat it. Someday. Pretty sure I can.

I'm with my friend Paul awhile ago. We had a chit-chat and he advised me to ditch my past and go find someone who deserves me. Someone better. Yes, they're not in favor of him. They find him loser. He's nobody to them but to me, he's somebody. Why would I let them decide for me? I have my own mind and I don't care if they find me stupid for hanging with him. I just feel loved and happy when with him. They'll get used to him. Someday they will accept him as him and as mine.

Last night I went home early and dropped by at Russ' house. I was fortunate for Tita gave me something to eat. Grilled liempo and tortang ewan. Haha. Free dinner. *smug*

I'm broke and I'm into financial crisis. I can't budget my money or I'm just not wise in spending it. Pfft. Whatever. I'm still broke. Can you lend me money? *wink* *wink*

At home while having siesta an odd thought crossed my mind. The song Ilong sung stuck to my mind. A song popularized by Apo Hiking Society.

Mahirap talaga ang magmahal ng syota ng iba
Oh sakit ng ulo maniwala ka
Ngunit kahit ano pang sabihin nila
Iwanan siya’y di ko magagawa

All I can say, OO mahirap talaga! Potah!

But if I were you, this is only an advice...if it still early...stay away. If you can still avoid him/her. Do it before you found yourself crying a well of tears.

Me and Russ will watch "The Devil Wears Prada" later today. I'll fetch her at home. Makapagrelax-relax naman!

let bygones be bygones...

It's getting hot in here. Whew! Anyway, hope this entry will peter out the issues. Let's drop everything and move on. I will be more careful now with my words and names of characters as I learned from you guys. *wink*

Lemme recount my past ramblings. Oh and by the way, I have an LJ now. Click here or just click "alembong" at the side links.

I spent the weekend at Bulacan. I missed my family. It's been a long time we've never seen each other. I almost forgot their face. Haha. We got together at my brother's (Alkin) birthday bash at his house with his family. Aust, my nephew was so cute. Big brown eyes with long battling eyelashes, delicate lips and raddish skin. Damn he's so cute. I want to squeeze his cheeks. He amused me in his dance moves. The "hagod" move and "let's do the funk" move. Haha. Wonder what are those moves? Um. From TV commercials. Hagod from a cough syrup advertisement I guess, I'm not familiar with it and the let's do the funk move from a deodorant advertisement. Hehe. Kids nowadays are good imitator.

I arrived there late as I first went to an internet cafe with no coffee. Haha. I checked my emails and customized my LJ. That day was so hot and every part of my body was sweating. I know...it's yuck. Haha. And I curse my hair and myself for having it curled. It's gross and unmanageable. I should not have it curled. I miss my straight hair. Huhu. Anyway, they were distracted as I came. Everyone were ranting. You need to shout or use a megaphone for you to be heard. Their voice were blustering. That's how we speak to one another. Haha.

Hmn. What else? We watched the movie Crank by Jason Statham. Read my LJ for more details of what had happened. Ahihihi.

Um. Right now, I just feel loved and happy. :)

word for the week...BITCH

Don't you know that it is an honor to be called a bitch? Have you ever wondered what makes a man want to marry a particular woman? Be a bitch for you to know. BItch isn't that a bad word. Well it depends on how you interpret and accept it. If you have a dirty mind, my apology for that. But hey I have a dirtier mind than you so knock it off.



Mood Status: bitchy

get out!

Hey to all visitors...if you find this site offensive, well GET THE HELL OUT OF HERE!!! I don't need feeble-minded alien browsing my blog. I will write whatever I want here. This is my online journal! Stop meddling! Mind your own. Freak. Pfft.

it sucks to be me...

Whew! I've been so wasted these past few days. Lemme recount those tedious days.


August 29. This was a bad day. I did not report to the office to work on my documents I needed for a-plan-for-a-career-growth. Hmn. I woke up early to get to Manila City Hall to process something. I dressed up in blue jeans paired with comfty shirt and a pair of black slippers. The I'm-not-dressed-to-go-out-Buti-na-lang-I'm-cute outfit. I got there as early as 9AM. Hehe. That was early. Bleh. Upon entering the huge door of the hall I saw three men in blue shirts in the information area. I paced toward them, head up but not arrogant. I removed my sunglasses and ask for the location of diploma authentication. I felt stupid when the big-belly man told me that they're not authenticating diplomas and transcripts. Bits of water start runnning down my face when he told me the right place for it. Aww. I'm dumb. Nowhere to run, so I went to the nearest mall and have a brunch. I didn't take any solid when I got off the house. I texted Iryl and ask for the exact address of CHED and how to get there. After eating I went to NBI UN. I wasn't aware that the said bureau has been moved to Carriedo. Grr. I took another ride going Carriedo and look for that fucking bereau. Thank God it didn't take me hours in finding. I went upstairs without any knowledge on whats and hows in getting the clearance. I saw a young lady vendor bragging her ballpens that this item is much needed in getting the clearance. With her lungs out in shouting using megaphone, I distracted her and bought one then I headed to the bureau. I lost gallons of perspiration processing this clearance. Whew! I finished around 12:30 PM. Next destination? CHED Pasig. I commute from Recto to Cubao. Potah ang init at ang traffic! Tagaktak ang pawis ko. It just came to my mind to take the train instead of jeep. Ambobo ko! Ampf. Well, after losing another set of gallons of water from my body, I reached Cubao. From there I took MRT going to Shaw. I have no idea how to get to that agency so what to do? Ask and ask and ask. Argh. Finally, I reached the said agency. I guess I was been cursed that day. I had all the bad luck. Pfft. As I enter the building the guard hold me and asked my appointment and I told him what's my business there. Ampf! I was stammering when he showed me the address of CHED's QC branch. Grr. I hate processing documents! An old generous man explained well what to do. Go to my school, ask for endorsement letter then go to CHED QC branch. Hayz. Ayoko naaaaa!!! Frustrated, I went back to the office to meet Ella and the gang. I coaxed Ella to smoke at the 6th floor and we had a lil chit-chat then Amy and Iryl came. They took a break and we went up the office. We met Alben, Manette, Chard, Lhen and Pat at the main door. I was surprised when I saw the tech guys with Pat. They persuaded me to join them and my luck got back as Pat treat us for snack. Hehe. Well well...Amy log off early and we directed to parlor. I had my hair curled for a new look. Russ keeps on bugging me. What's the biggie? I just went to the parlor to relax and she's freaking mad at me. I don't know her problem. I just told her to cancel our meeting and move it on Saturday or any day she's free. Nagdrama ba naman. Then she reminded me of her favor. Potek nawala sa isip ko. I promised her about that video that she will be using in her presentation. Sa dami ba naman ng iniisip ko at sa nangyari sa akin sa buong araw na yun, maaalala ko pa ba yun?! Grr. I told her to wait for me and I will drop by at their house and we will do that video over night. Kahit mamaga mata ko sa puyat! Hayz. Why do we always need to please someone? Anyhow, even tired I meet her and we look for internet cafe. I finished it at 12PM without having dinner. I told her to burn it but she keeps on insisting to mail it. Fine! I left her emailing the video to her yahoo account. I took my late dinner and finally, REST.

August 30. When I had my feet in the office they start teasing me with my new hair. I don't care. I'm pretty. Bleh. The day goes fine and smooth til late afternoon Russ start calling and texting again. She attached the wrong file. Gademet! So I made another video but my PC is giving me headache. It automatically shuts down and I'm losing my LAN connection and sound. Whew. Pahirap! Anyhow, I finished it with cursing. To be safe, I burned the video. I texted Russ to meet me at the house so I can hand the CD to her. Then we went off. Alben and I ate at Inengs. I unleashed my madness to him and he was just quiet absorbing all my rants. I met Russ at the corner of our street. All I knew was to hand her the CD then she will go home. But I was all wrong when she told me to test the CD. Argh. I want to rest!!! Give me life!!! I couldn't say no so we look for internet cafe AGAIN to check the CD. I want to collapse when I saw the video been cut. Waaahh. I want to rest! I have no choice but to redo it. *sob sob*

We finished at around 2AM. I want to kill her. Grr. We went home and finally I laid my tired body on bed.


September 1. Ella coaxed me to accompany her at GB3. The scenario was to drop by, meet her friends and vamos. I have no idea that we will go on a despedida party. I have no choice but to accept the fact that I was idiot having someone dragged me to a place I never knew what's going on. Pfft. I just realized it why she was one helluva prepared. She even brought an extra blouse, fixed her hair well and put color on her face. When I met her friends I felt I was in a wrong group. I felt out-of-place. A crowd of conyos and bitches. Anyhow, I managed to mingle with them although they were intimidating. I was only gaping at them embracing and kissing each other. They were hell cool but still...bitches. I can no longer take it so I coaxed her to catch up at our colleagues drinking session at yoo-hoo. Never heard that place. We held a taxi, fetch Lhen at Buendia corner Makati Ave and headed to yoo-hoo. Happenings over there with all due respect to others have been cut. It reminded me of my childhood days. Pretzels! Haha.

September 2. I just stayed at the boarding house and played Word Factory with Alben the whole afternoon. Ah, we food trip. We bought ice cream, pizza, slurpee and nothing. Hehe. We spent time talking bout nothingness.

September 3. I went to Sta. Ana church to attend the 6 o'clock mass. When I turned at my back to give "peace", you won't believe who's the person standing behind me. My face turned white as I saw her and utter the words "peace be with you". The gal who hated me so much. I can't move. I felt numb and my heart was pounding. I finished the mass and sped off. Whew! You know what? I really wanted to invite her outside and smoke. Haha. Bonding ba?? Hehe.

Mood Status: relieved
Music Playing: Missez Feat. Paul Wall - Love Song